The Beginning

today, I begin to think, and think again and again, that I should do my own bucket list. I read a book that inspired me to begin my own bucket list. I should start now as my life already begin 21 years ago. sigh. I should start even early than this. never mind, yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, that's why it is called the present. I take this quote from kung fu panda movie. last two nights, I watched this movie. again on HBO. i love the movie. lots of brilliant words. and it's funny too. a few weeks ago, I'd no life. every day I have to finish up my works. I sat on the blue chair, with the laptop on the table. typing all the programming codes. stop. think. resolve the problems. and do the coding again. i got no time for mr. saturday and mr sunday. 

I still remember. 'where do you wanna go?' my mom asked me at 10pm. 'i wanna go to office mom, finish up my works. i won't be back at home tonight, i'll stay in the office'. 'who else in the office?' she was worried about me. I don't understand why she asked me like that. 'everyone' I replied and get off. my office just nearby. 5 minutes from my home. that night I stay awake. no sleep. Ali cafe on my table. it helps! but I guess the coding makes me awake. think so. this moment I begin to think what would it be if the same thing happen in next 2 years. what happen to me? no life. all my dreams will gone. or maybe can not be done since i have no time for all the dreams.

while waiting for the bus to pick me up after work, i was thinking, if I am able to fly like superman, I don't have to wait for the bus. I can fly anytime. and it's super fast too. 'nahhh' it's ridiculous. human can not fly. if they do, how? they don't have booster under their leg. '.... nahhh' impossible. but I wish I can fly. this will not be in my bucket list of course. fly here means free. yeah. free to do all the things I want to do. my dreams. everyone have their own dreams. I have a lot. I write down all the things that i want to do before I die. I'm not sure how many things I should list out. thousand perhaps. tonight I'm making myself comfort on the blue chair. 'Hmm.. Where should I start?'. I am yawning now. I better go to bed and start to dream.and wait for tomorrow.